Baby Chick is on the waiting list!

Crazy isn't it! I'm only 5 weeks pregnant, but I already had to put Baby Chick on a waiting list for daycare. This location won't take children under 12 weeks. So based on my estimated due date of November 30th, Baby Chick wouldn't even start until February 22, 2010! Insane!

I don't want to waste my time worrying

This is what I keep saying. I don't want to waste my time worrying that something might happen to baby chick. When people say things about how early we are telling people, or that I want to go out and look at and even buy baby things..I get that it is early, but there is never a "safe" time to start doing things. If something happens to baby chick, there is nothing I can do about it. I want to enjoy my pregnancy and have fun looking at baby things. Even when the first trimester passes, there is still no guarantee that everything will be ok. My cousin was pregnant with twins. She carried them both to term and they were fine. Then one baby needed a chest tube and they poked her heart and she died...there are no guarrantees.
I want to enjoy being pregnant, no matter how early I am. I don't want to waste my time worrying that something will happen and then all of a sudden, 9 months have flown by and I have done nothing but worry. Iw ill enjoy myself and my pregnancy. I will look at baby things in every store I walk by. I will spend time on the internet looking at cribs and bedding and maternity clothes. I will learn to embrace the physical changes that my body is going through.
I will enjoy this pregnancy!

cramping

I was havingmild cramping about an hour ago. Its freaking me out a little bit. I just finished lunch and I'm just trying to relax...

4 weeks 3 days

That's how pregnant I am today! :) According to my calendar, Baby Chick's neural tubes and heart are beginning to form and blood is beginning to circulate. Eay to go Baby Chick!!!

On another note....when will my paranoia go away? Each time I go to the bathroom, I inspect the toilet paper like it is my job!! Its like pee...wipe...inspect, pee...wipe...inspect. Ugh!! I know you are ok in there Baby Chick! I can't wait to see you on an ultrasound, I wonder when that will be?!?!

I feel like all I have been doing is eating, and that Steve keeps shoving food in my face. So I decided to weigh myself this morning....I lost 2 pounds! I won't reveal what my staring weight was, but I was 2 pounds less than it this morning. :p

Pregnancy confirmed!

On Monday I went to my PCP's office and peed in a cup. They called yesterday and confirmed that I am pregnant!! Even after 4 positive home pregnancy tests, I was still anxious to hear back from them. Speaking of...her are all the First Response Home Pregnancy tests. The line keeps getting darker and darker!

I really want to get one of those digital tests that pop up "pregnant", but Steve says its not worth the 3 minutes of stress that I get waiting for the results to come up!

No updates really. I'm getting a little queasy in the morning, but not really nauseous. I'm getting really bloated in the afternoons. About an hour after lunch, I need to un-button the top of my pants. By the time we go to sleep at night, I definitely have a little bump! I know that it is all bloat for now, but eventually it will be the baby! My boobs are starting to get sore, my nips especially. I think they are even starting to get a bit fuller too. I barely have any boobs so the slightest bit of fullness is easy to detect. I think in addition to belly pics, I will do boob pics too!! :)

4 weeks

I am exactly 4 weeks pregnant today, though this is the 5th week of my pregnancy. This whole this is so confusing! Since 2/23 was the first day of my last menstral cycle, that was technically my first week of pregnancy. Then on 3/2 I was officially pregnant for one week...eventhough I still wouldn't ovulate for another week. See, it is so confusing!!

We spilled the beans!

I have POAS everyday since Thursday and line is getting darker and darker. On Friday night we told my family; my parents and my 3 brothers. Everyone one is so excited!! Except for maybe my oldest brother. He and his wife have been trying to get pregnant for over 3 years, so I'm sure this is hard on them. I'm sure they are happy for us too, but it is still hard for them.
Steve told all of our neighbors on Friday afternoon...he was so happy he just couldn't keep it a secret. They all smoked cigars to celebrate! Then this morning, we finally told Steve's parents. They are very happy as well.
I went out on Saturday and bought a few pregnancy books...and also a little hooded towel with a baby chick on it. I couldn't help myself!

A picture is worth a million words!

I'm pregnant!!!! My due date is November 30th, 2009

9 DPO

I'm 9 days past ovulation. My temp keeps rising. I caved in and POAS. Only 1 line, the control line. So I chucked it into the trash and hopped into the shower. I got of the shower and started getting ready for work. Then my curiosity got the best of me, and I went back into the trash can for the test. I'm such a loser....but wait!!!.....tere was the faintest line humanly possible. I'm almost positive that it was an evaporation line but I couldn't throw it away. I kept it. I'm going to write today's date on it and "9DPO' on it, and I will keep it in the drawer. Every day from now until Sunday, for as long as AF stays away and my temps stay up, I'm going to POAS and label them. Let's see what happens...good thing they are only $1.

So yes...I fail at will power. I wasn't supposed until Saturday (I think) and I didn't even make it through Wednesday. Fail!

I'm in the 2ww

This is my first 2ww...my first one after really trying. I'm almost positive I O'd on Monday. That means if we got pregnant this cycle, I would be due on 11/30. If my period doesn't show up by March 23rd, I'm taking a pregnancy test. I'm making a promise to myself right now that I will not pee on any sticks before this date...no matter what I feel like or how my temps look. Ok, I take that back. Fertility Friend is telling me to test on March 21st, that would be 12 dpo. So far my longest LP has been 12 dpo....I will test on March 22nd. Of course if I don't get my period by then. I will be keeping my figers crossed. I will also be avoiding caffeine and eating pineapple core. Pineapple core?? Yes, I read that it aids in the implantation of the fertilized egg into the uterine wall...crazy I know, but I'll try anything! :)

I need to get better at this

So I haven't posted since my first post...I vow I will get better at this. Eventhough I have been on BCP since January, I feel like this is our fist cycle really trying. And being the naive person I am, I truly believe we will get pregnant this cycle...silly me. Being hopeful is one this, be convinced is just plain silly!

I like to have a plan...I plan everything!! So naturally I thought that I could "plan" trying to conceive...too bad I have no control over that!! My original "plan" was to get pregnant in April/May so that I would give birth early 2010. I've always invisioned being very pregnant at Christmastime with a big baby belly in photos. Then when the baby had it's first Christmas, he/she would already be nearly a year old and just have adorable pictures.

Well all that went out the window last cycle. My period was 3 days later than the month before and I practically convinced myself that I was pregnant...I probably gained 3 pounds in the process too! Well, AF came and obviously I wasn't pregnant. It was at that moment that I realized that I didn't care when I got pregnant, or when I was due....I just wanted to be pregnant!!

So the journey truly begins. I bought a ClearBlueEasy Fertility monitor and I am tracking my temperatures. I know that I should just relax and have fun and let things happen when they happen...but I need more control than that! I have been tracking my temperature since I got of BCP...each morning I get up at 6am (even on the weekends) and take my temperature, plug it into this online program and it makes a chart out of it. I know it seems pretty compulsive, but it allows me to see how long my cycles are, determine if and when I ovulate (after being on the pill for 10 years I had no clue!!) and it can help me figure out when my period would likely show up. This is my first cycle using the CBEFM. This thing is pretty cool...really expensive but hopefully worth all the money. It takes all the guess work out of it! I got a "high" fertility reading on Saturday and a "peak" fertility reading yesterday and today....can you figure out what we have been doing! :)

So there it is in a nutshell....I want to get pregnant, we are officially trying to make a baby!

PS. If it really does happen this cycle...my due date would be November 30! :)